Thursday 5 September 2013

Is choice good?

I watched The Wright Stuff this morning and they were discussing whether having too much choice is good for you. I was surprised to find out that phycologists shared my view- basically it's not!

I'm not one for reverting to a communist state, but on more than one occassion the entire contents of my wardrobe has been unceremoniously tossed on the bed in exasperation. On such stressful mornings I can't help but think we all need a uniform then they'd be one less thing to worry about!

I distinctly remember my time as a 6th former sat in the library leafing through huge tomes filled with every possible university course in the country. I was left wondering whether landscape gardener or dentist was more my cup of tea.... oh and then I'd spot small animal care and my whole decision making process would be thrown into disarray.

The thing is we have too much choice, and we mistake it as freedom. It's what distinctly seperates the first world from the third. The opportunity to buy more stuff then we could ever want or need, and the possibility of taking one's life in an infinite number of directions seems to be a necessity in our modern society and we have embraced it with vigour. The thing is does it make us happy?

As I sat in the library I remember worrying myself silly. What if I made the wrong choice? This could be the defining moment in the crossroads of my life. I plugged for theatre, but would small animal care have made me happier? You definitely get to squeeze lots of guinea pigs and what could be better than that?!

Think of a box of chocolates, not the Forest Gump one; but an actual one. When it's full the choice is overwhelming. We change our minds a hundred times before plugging for the hazelnut one. What if there were only three chocolates.... hold on this is a ridiculously bad analogy...  who am I kidding? I'd eat the whole box and the three after that too. What I'm saying is ... take the cereal aisle in a megasized supermarket as an example. Does standing there choosing between a hundred different brands of cereal make you happy? If they only had cornflakes would you buy them and just get on with the rest of your life?

I'm convinced choice isn't freedom. At best it gives you a sense of power over your own destiny. At worst it brings doubt and dissatisfaction. 

I'm doing my best to battle through the overwhelming choices in my life, but I'm really beginning to believe that less is most definitely more.


Wednesday 4 September 2013

Success is ...


The Guardian published their 2013 MediaGuardian 100 this week and it struck me how much we seem to enjoy these made up lists of seemingly successful and influential people. As I look at my own currently rather dreary bank balance and wildly fluctuating freelance portfolio career (!) I'm beginning to wonder if I'm successful. If I am, then what does that look like? If I'm not, then what's the secret?

It seems to me that these lists are nearly always about earning a shed load of money, being married to someone with a shed load of money, being the CEO of a big old company, or being somewhere in line to the throne. I obviously fail on all of the above, as does the vast majority of the world's population. With this in mind can any of us say we're successful? With prerequisites like these I'm beginning to question whether these lists are motivating or just a way to inspire envy and dissatisfaction.

If we continue to measure success by affluence or position it leaves very little room to feel worthwhile within the context of our own life choices.  What if our sphere of influence is only amongst our friends (Facebook ones included!) and family? What if we never make it past middle-manager, or shop floor assistant? 

Feeling slightly demoralised by all this I've decided to do a little experiment .... something of a pick me up. It's nothing new really, just some positive affirmation, a bit of a hug for the soul! I've decided to do a 'Success is .... ' photo collection. Everyday, for as long as I can be bothered, I'm going to take a picture of something I think has been successful - nothing to do with money, power or fame, just little wins that make me feel happy. My first thought was a picture of my washing line. I can't help but take pride in getting the distance between the clothes just right, with all the socks matched. But I decided to take this one instead...



It's a little DIY kit for kids to make an apron out of a tea towel. Doesn't sound like anything I usually get up too. In fact it's not remotely like planning a difficult and dangerous expedition, but craft is something I really, really enjoy. So I've put this kit together to give to a friend and her young daughter. For me - a success! I've also set up a Pinterest page where I'll post my daily 'Success is...' pictures.

So, if like me you're somewhere in the middle of the World Top 7 Billion List, then perhaps you can like my Pinterest page? But don't worry if you don't ... it's successful anyway!

Sally 

Tuesday 3 September 2013

Memories of Clipper

As the yachts competing in the Clipper Round the World Race 13/14 make their way through the English Channel my right thumb begins to ache! In May 2010 I was lucky enough to jump aboard 'Singapore' as a legger - a crew member who takes on a Leg rather than a 'Worlder', who rather obviously goes round the world! 



During Leg 7 we were set to race from Jamaica to New York, before shooting off to Nova Scotia, across the Atlantic to Cork, before heading to Holland, then home to Hull. By all intents and purposes we were novices, but by Jamaica the worlders we old hands, and we leggers eager not to let the team down. 

Like all expeditions there were plenty of ups and downs. The new 2013 crews will be experiencing many of them right now. Seasickness will hit first, followed by exhaustion, panic and possibly a couple of accidents. Even with the excellent training provided by the Clipper team it's not difficult to imagine the chaos some crews will experience in their first few days at sea. The professional skippers may even be thinking..."What the hell of I got myself into!?" 

My own race had it's fair share of disasters - a dismasting, a grounding, several injuries, a couple a which were very serious - in fact I dislocated a toe and fractured my thumb (off the back end of the Isle of White, how exotic!) There were shredded sails, man-over-boards and broken steering columns. Onboard politics were a minefield, some crews were at breaking point. It's life-changing, and not always for the right reasons. 

As an ocean rower I felt at ease with whatever the seas could throw at me, but the relative complexity of the yacht, certainly in comparison to a rowing boat, and the constantly changing dynamics of the crew were at times extremely tough. Imagine eighteen people squashed into a floating caravan!



But one of my fondest memories was sharing a five hour nightshift sat on deck with a chap called Heston - nicknamed for his remarkable likeness to the bespectacled Fat Duck chef. We'd not had much of a relationship before that night; in fact the worlders clique was at times difficult to penetrate. As Heston had won the converted title of Watch Leader (aka. second in command) he was often to be found standing behind the wheel, lighting a rolly deciding whether it was time for a sail change. 

As our track across the North Atlantic demanded very little but careful helmsmanship, I sat out under the sails staring at the stars, trying not to get too cold. To my surprise Heston took a seat beside me, and we launched into a "What chocolate bar am I thinking about?" game, which left us laughing hysterically for hours! 

We didn't speak much after that, there just wasn't a suitable moment. Keeping the boat moving tends to take over. But it was one of those shared experiences that always brings back a smile. Somewhere in the middle of the ocean we were debating whether Fry's Turkish Delight really counts as a chocolate bar or not. 

Anyway, here's a post I wrote whilst aboard the good ship Singapore. It'll give you an idea of what it can be like on board. 

Do follow this year's race, it's really is an incredible adventure. If you want to see the yachts, they'll be sailing back into London next summer. 

www.clipperroundtheworld.com

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We’d spent all morning battling hard to make it to the front of the
 fleet, only Cork and 1000 miles of ocean stood between us and a race
 win. Although still very early on, in fact this was our second day at 
sea, the crew were in top spirits. I think we were all secretly gloating
 at our early success.
The winds began to fill and the white horses were out on a gallop, Jim 
called time on the medium weight spinnaker. We’d changed spinnakers a 
hundred times before, perhaps that was our downfall? Maybe we’d become a
 little complacent, perhaps we needed to take a little more time, do a
 couple more checks? Buoyed up with enthusiasm ‘B’ Watch scattered across
 the deck manning winches and gripping guys.
It happened so quickly, I didn’t even realise we were in trouble until I saw the foot of the spinnaker hit the water.  We’d already dragged a huge body of it through the boom and onto the deck ready for a quick dispatch down the companionway. The guy rope taunted and we couldn’t hold the kite any longer and back it slipped inflating into this menacing bubble billowing out from behind the mainsail.
Jim was glued to the helm bellowing instructions, cursing as the kite filled with water. With all our might we could not get the guy back through the boom. The halyards and guys slithered off into the ocean creating an enormous octopus, which swam menacingly off our stern.
A spinnaker can sink a boat, it can pull you over and under within seconds. I have a healthy respect for their power. Even after a month’s sailing I’m still filled with trepidation when we fly one. So much can go wrong, a Chinese gybe and suddenly you’re in the drink.
The octopus was beginning to tear, I remember seeing the first rip and naively thinking “If we can get it in now a bit of Dacron will do the trick! A couple of stitches and we can get out of this one with our pride intact.” But like the dress on a Bond girl the seams began to unzip. Huge sections of the kite torn apart slipping away into the waves.
Halyards were flogging, Jim was swearing, crew were dangling precariously over the guard rail desperate to catch hold of a tentacle in an attempt to bring it into the boat. The awesome power of the wind and waves scuppered any attempt to tame the creature. I stood helpless on the pushpin watching as a section disappeared under our keel a wrapped itself neatly round our rudder.
We lost steering.
‘A’ Watch were starting to appear on deck, still crumple-faced and bleary-eyed from sleep. I can only imagine what horror they witnessed as they crawled out of the companionway. Being in the thick of things you can’t take in the full picture, the carnage that had unfolded about the ship.
Jim yelled to drop the main, with no steering and a thickening wind we couldn’t control the sail as it tumbled down towards us. Half of it made its way over the side, the other cascaded all over the port deck trapping crew and ropes alike.
“We can’t just look at it!” cried Jim. “We’ve got to get the bloody thing in!”
This was our Moby Dick, a mighty beast that seemed to elude every attempt to capture it. Crewmate holding on to crewmate as bodies reached
 well over the side to grab fabric or rope.
Singas began to breach, pitching and rolling in the swell. I didn’t see it but Jim must have discovered the reason for our demise as what remained of the kite found its way onto the deck, tugged by ten or more exhausted crew. There was barely any sail left, just tattered shreds no amount of Dacron was going to repair.
It took a while to clean up the mess, tidy the lines, release the rudder from the guy and shredded kite that had made its way under our keel.
Jim called us to the cockpit; we sat their glum faced and knackered. A couple of the lads joked but they were nervous giggles like laughing at a funeral. Jim, in his usual understated style rallied the troops.
“Well we got ourselves in a bit of a pickle!”
He went on to explain that a knot in the lazy spinnaker sheet had caused our catastrophe. He dangled the evidence in front of us. It wasn’t a knot anyone of us would tie. It’s seems if there is an opportunity for a rope to tangle and knot itself it will. The lazy sheet had caught itself around the block therefore not allowing the kite to run free. There was no way the crew could pull against a kite still attached to the other side of the boat.
I think ‘B’ Watch still felt guilty. We skulked downstairs to our bunks wandering if there was anything at all we could have done. I personally felt strange about the fact that it was partly my responsibility to take photographs of the event, it’s what ‘Media’ crew have to do, to be apart from the action and document the moment. It must take a very different personality from my own to be able to disassociate oneself and become voyeur instead of participant. I didn’t even think to get the camera. So it is my hope that this blog gives you that picture that I wasn’t able to take.
Oh, and less than 12 hours later the lightweight spinnaker blew. ‘A’ Watch were on deck and the calamity started all over again!